"Life will bring you pain all by itself. Your responsibility is to create joy." -Milton Erickson
It is true... yup.... I am happy today! I had a few minor set backs like when filling out a form and I did not know how to fill out my marital status or if I had a significant other... or when people wanted to know details... Which I share openly.... But overall, so far today.... I AM HAPPY!
Even in those moments, my heart was still strong and I could feel it slowly repairing itself. My ex was here with the kids and I thought that would hurt, I thought seeing him would hurt today because yesterday did not and I surely cannot, not miss him 2 days in a row.... But seeing him was not a painful situation. It was business like, a little awkward but friendly... I can live with that. I know I still have tonight to contend with and my brain does all sorts of crazy things that generally make me more upset... I have begun going to bed early, just so I can avoid thinking. This works out perfectly because my boys are all waking up, often with nightmares, so at least I get a little rest. I am learning to let go of the things I cannot control and not dwell on the things I cannot change.
I am excited for the gym tomorrow, ready to continue creating me.... So excited for the future. For once in my life, the unknown does not have me completely frozen in fear, I am running into it and that is okay!
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