"Complaining is silly. Either act or forget." -Stefan Sagmeister
I am proud to say that I have made it to the anger stage and I am not sure if it feels good or not.... I am however, ready to rock and roll!
Tonight my ex-husband showed me how little he values the last 12.5 years. Telling me that he will always love me is just smoke being blown up my ever shrinking ass. I had a wake up call and, while it was a smack in the face that left me a little humiliated and disgusted at myself, I am glad it happened. I am now ready to move forward and seal this part of my life. It is time to open up a new chapter without the baggage my ex brings to a relationship.
I will not get into all the nasty little details but to sum it up, I latched onto the smallest glimmer of hope that we could fix things and laid myself on the line. He reeled me in, hook, line and sinker and then he set me free with the words... "I am sorry, I chose her". I was floored, I was embarrassed and I was hurt but then I got mad and that feels good!
I had come so far last week - I was happier, stronger, more optimistic and ready to move forward but I sank into this place of hope and that got me nowhere. So much for never turning my back on my ex because this girl is walking! I will be pleasant because it is necessary for my boys. The damage that has been done cannot be fixed. This girl is ready to soar!!!!
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