I write this with the rawest of emotion as I sit in bed wondering how the hell my life came to this. As of yesterday when my husband walked out the door, I became legally separated. I did not actually know that until a friend told me. I am a single mom, with 4 boys under 8.... not sure what I am going to do..... but I will be stronger and better, so will my boys....
I asked my husband to leave yesterday after he admitted to his second incidence of infidelity. We had been working so hard to save what we had.. or so I thought. We were working through an emotional affair that left me very scarred and knocked down.... but I love him and thought he deserved another chance. After a rough few weeks where I was certain there was someone else, I found out he had kissed... get this.... my neighbor... someone I thought was my friend. My own instincts which I have learned are very accurate, tell me it was more than a kiss but it does not matter. He cheated again so I must protect myself and the boys. This is the VERY condensed version, one day I will write more but for now my blog is no longer about being married to a cop... it is about being a mom, raising her boys and making the best out of a really bad situation.....
It is with a heavy heart that I embark on this journey! I am scared, my boys are scared, we are all a little uncertain but we will be okay.... one day
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