So I had someone ask me today, "How do you do it?" and I replied, "I just smile and do!" I then in a humorous manner replayed the previous night in which my superhero was at work and I had to feed and Bathe 4 children, make 2 lunches, do valentines for 3 children and make and frost 24 valentines cupcakes for the kindergarten class! I managed to do this all by 8:30 and it would have been 8 but I had a slight mishap with my second batch of icing! I laugh and say "I just do".
As I reflect back, I realize that as a woman I feel it is my job to take on the world and not let anyone see me sweat. I have to do it all and be a "super-mom" The truth is, that sweat comes in various forms. This "sweat" appears in my case as weight gain (Man, I sure sweat a lot), shaky nerves, the inability to control emotions, anger, yelling, crying... usually not all at once. I do do it but not without sacrificing myself and to be honest, this Super-mom persona is not all that super when I yell over the 3rd glass of spilled milk at the dinner table... or the first, depending on my mood. I have forgotten how to have fun and replaced it with making sure everything seems perfect and then eating away the majority of my stress.... which in turn creates more stress. Maybe if I were to do the forbidden and ask for help, I would sweat less or maybe if I started to recognize the various forms that this sweat presents itself, I could offer help to other super-moms out there.
Don't get me wrong, I will continue to do it and I will do it with a smile on my face for the world to see, it is just who I am! Maybe I will pause occasionally and evaluate how important something is, question if it is worth the stress. Maybe I will take a bit more time to have fun and enjoy all the amazing people in my life. Maybe I will stop and appreciate the little things.... I would prefer to do it that way. I am going to go reflect.. and eat a cupcake... and instead of stressing about it, I am going to enjoy it!!
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